I used to be, like, you know, really fucking good at shooting people online.
I suffer from severe chronic pain. I use opioids daily. I have severe injuries, including nerve damage on both hands, from a military accident. I am retraining my muscle memory on both hands. You have no excuse for being slower than I am or having worse aim than what I have now.
I quit serious competetive gaming years ago. I'm not interested in playing competetively. Especially not this excuse of a game. For any team. Don't bother asking. Unless you're offering money, girls and drugs.